( Hello! )

 

I thought I would fail with my introduction. It’s okay for you to not read it. It’s a failure after all. Okay, so....

This journal was made for many unknown reason, maybe fanfic, maybe my journal as well, but since I already added some user that related with Super Junior. So I think Super Junior was the main reason for this journal.

About Super Junior, I’m not “Suju13” or “Suju15”. I’m neutral. It’s okay for adding more two talented guys, but it’s okay too to let the group as the way it is. I’m a hardcore fan of Henry Lau (you can tell from my pic user). And for now, Lee Hyuk Jae a.k.a Eunhyuk is my first favorite. It was Leeteuk at the very first, but now he is my 4^th. Ryeowook is 2^nd, Kyuhyun is 3^rd. But I like them all.

I had known Super Junior after they debuted. I didn’t like them, you could say I disliked them (but I’m not an anti) because I don’t like boyband. My background is Japanese metal music, so I didn’t ever think that I would be a Super Junior fan. I like Super Junior because of their rocker image in Don’t Don, it is late, I know, but better late than never. And I have been falling in love with Super Junior and Henry until now.

And for now, Super Junior is the only Korean boyband that I’m being a fan for (Epik High is not a boyband, is it?). For Japanese boyband is Kanjani8. For Japanese metal bands, don’t ask because it will take time to mention it.

I live in Indonesia (if someone who knows Indonesia or lives in Indonesia like me, raise your hand!!!). A busy student college (I’m busy with my hanging out activity,,,aha...). I’m 18 years old (just 5 months younger than Henry Lau,,,err...so what?!)

After all, this is my fail intro.

 

Yoroshiku yo!

I just realized that the baby chibi eunhae was made by fishydotlove OMG!!! You don't know how much i love that picture!!! I love the "One Upon An Anchovy" one!!! You are genius!!!
And there's some Kyuhyun pic before debut which i wanted to send to grace_uni on the messenger...
And some chibis that i wanted to share with ella-unnie (leona_green )
Credits to its own painter....


( Eunhae/Haehyuk or whatever is not real!!! )

Somehow i can't do LJ-cut... It's just my LJ or what??
Arghk!!! I want to do picspam!!!

RAIN ~Epilogue~

Rating : PG-13

Summary : Well, you know, I only propose once

WC : 889
A/N : Unbeated, and too lazy to re-read.

( Part 1 ) ( Part 2 )
( Part 3 )

RAIN

Summary : It was only four days before her birthday. This year would be the worst birthday ever in her life. Hyukjae was married now

Rating : PG-13

WC : 3,166

Disclaimer : Not mine, not mine, not mine. Mine is only the story.

Warning : AU, girl!Donghae, girl!Sungmin, OCCness because it’s AU story and everything can occur in AU world.

A/N : Unbetaed, and I haven’t  re-read this, too lazy… hehehe…
( Part 1 ) ( Part 2 )

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                        “What the?” Donghae almost cursed.

She ran to the closest shelter which was a big tree. A big tree which already planted since she was baby. Donghae sighed, really what a day, she thought. It was her bestest day ever, he thought with sarcasm. Donghae look above the tree, the tree which Hyukjae and she used to climb when they were kid. She patted the trunk slowly.

She looked to the street, there was a young man running in the rain hurriedly, wearing a pink bunny custom, carrying the bunny head on his hand. She looked to another corner and she saw two kindergarten kids wearing raincoat while their mom covering them with umbrella. What an ordinary day like this could be the worst day in her life ever, she thought.

                     “Hey, Mr. Tree.” Donghae talked to the big tree.

                     “You have been standing here for twenty six years, aren’t you tired?” Donghae traced the tree’s trunk.

                     “You always watch, don’t you? Watching Hyukjae and I grew up. You were here when I ran away from my wedding and you are here when Hyukjae’s getting married. Don’t you pity me, Mr. Tree? I ran away because I knew I was getting married with someone that I don’t love the most. I want to get married with someone I love the most, but now it’s his wedding with someone else, not me whom had run away from her wedding for him. Someone else who is obedient, sweet and nice, not like me.”

                “Mr. Tree, I have been falling in love with Hyukjae. I always fall in love with him.” Donghae sighed, trying to hold her tears. “I think you’ve already known, Mr. Tree. You know my feeling through him from the very start. You always watch us, don’t you? Even until this very second. You watched me when I was running away from my wedding. You watched him when he was preparing his wedding with Sungmin.”

“But why? Why do you only watch? Why don’t you tell him about my feeling?” Donghae’s eyes started teary. “Why didn’t you restrain him to prepare his wedding?”

“Why did I run away cowardly instead of said out loud my love for him on the aisle? Why did I accept Kibum’s proposal?” Donghae cried. “And why do I regret anything now?”

“It’s supposed to be me. It’s supposed to be me whom standing next to him on the aisle, not that sweet Sungmin, it’s supposed to be me, a rebellious Donghae.” Donghae closed her eyes, because it was better to not see anything. She was afraid to see how the rain stop and the sky started brighten, as if celebrating Hyukjae’s wedding. She hated seeing people started walking in to the ballroom and the wedding march started playing.

“My life is all about him, Mr. Tree. I tell you though you already know.” Donghae leaned on the trunk. “I met Kibum on his birthday party, Kibum is his co-workers. He introduced me to Kibum, he said that Kibum was a nice person though he didn’t talk much. So I started dating Kibum, because he said to me to. Then when Kibum proposed me, he loudly while smiling said that was a great move, I was stupid if I didn’t accept him. So I did it. And look, how it becomes now.”

“I can’t attend his wedding, it needs more than all of my life time bravery to attend his wedding.”

“If only Hyukjae did like I did, promise to cancel his wedding if it’s raining like this.”

***************

Donghae was a person who always fulfilled her promise and she proud of it, but everything about Hyukjae was the only exception on her life. She said she couldn’t attend the ceremony but she would attend the party. And now, she was lying on her bed, almost crying, not in Hyukjae’s wedding party where she was supposed to.

                        “No tears, Lee Donghae.” Donghae said to herself.

                        “It’s your own fault, it’s yours.” Donghae slapped her cheeks with her palms.

It was only four days before her birthday. This year would be the worst birthday ever in her life. Hyukjae was married now. And in the next second, Donghae cried until falling asleep.

***************

Donghae rubbed her puffy eyes. She rolled over lazily on her bed, refusing to wake up. All of sudden she wished she was dead while sleeping so that she didn’t have to face another day without single Hyukjae. Single Hyukjae who was hers. Donghae never felt as depressed as this, Hyukjae must be somewhere, enjoying his honey moon with sweet Minnie. How she wished she could forget Hyukjae, but on the other hand, she didn’t want to, because those years that they had spent together were so precious. Donghae looked on the ceiling, how she already missed Hyukjae.

                        “Donghae, wake up.” Her mom opened the door.

                        “I have, Mom.” Donghae said hoarsely. “Good morning, Mom.”

                        “It’s supposed to be good afternoon, Daughter.” Her mom lifted up the blanket. “It’s already around 1pm.”

Her mom titled her head questioningly, ”Did you cry? Why are your eyes so swollen?”

                        “No. I slept too much, Mom.” Donghae tried to make excuses.

Her mom stared at her for a moment then nodded.

                        “Mom, I’m hungry.” Donghae was still lying on her bed.

                        “Brush your teeth, wash up first. There is fried rice for you to eat.”

After washing up, Donghae wore her oversized shirt, it was Hyukjae’s actually but Donghae borrowed it when they were senior high school due to an accident which involved egg and flour, and Donghae felt happy that she never gave it back to Hyukjae. Donghae sat on her favorite seat and was ready to eat the fried rice before her.

Donghae just ate a spoonful of fried rice when her mom entered the kitchen and said, “You should go to Hyukjae’s apartment.”

                        “Why?” Donghae felt annoyed all of sudden. “To clean up his apartment thus the apartment is clean when he comes back from honeymoon?”

Her mom looked at her weirdly, “Don’t you know, Hyukjae’s wedding was cancelled.”

                        “What?!” Donghae almost spilled out the fried rice inside her mouth, she swallowed the rice quickly.

                        “Yes. I don’t know what happens between both of you. One ran away and the other one was left by his bride.” Her mom shook her head.

                        “Mom, I borrow your car!” Donghae jumped from sitting, taking the car key which was hanging on the key holder, and ran to the car.

***************

 Donghae couldn’t calm herself down on the way to Hyukjae’s apartement. She drove like there was pregnant woman inside her car and needed to go to hospital as soon as possible. As she arrived to Hyukjae’s, she parked the car carelessly and ran hurriedly to Hyukjae’s apartment.

She jumped out from the elevator and ran all the way to Hyukjae’s room. She panted as she knocked the door impatiently. There was no answer. Donghae kicked the door instead of knocking it.

                        “Lee Hyukjae! Open the door!” Donghae shouted.

After a moment a click sound was heard and the door was opened.

                        “Hae, you are noisy … .”

                        “Hyuk!” Donghae grabbed his collars as soon as the door was fully opened.

                        “I heard that your wedding was cancelled. I heard that Sungmin ran away! Tell me that it’s not real!”

                        “Yes, my wedding was cancelled.”

“Damn, it’s karma, Hyuk.” Donghae said panicky. “I ran away at my wedding and now your bride ran away at your wedding. It was supposed to be my karma, Hyuk.”

                        “I’m sorry, Hyuk. Maybe Sungmin is still near here, let’s find her.” Donghae kept talking. “You know, I was still in Korea for three days until I flew to China. I know, Sungmin is still here. We will find her.”

                        “Donghae.”

                        “It’s okay, Hyuk. I have many friends in China, if she ran away to China, I’ll ask my friends to find her.”

                        “Donghae.” Hyukjae raised his voice a bit, asking Donghae to stop talking.

Donghae stopped talking and stared at Hyukjae confusedly.

                        “It’s okay, Hae.”

                        “But Sungmin is your bride!”

                        “I said it’s okay, Hae. I let her go.”

                        “I don’t understand. You let her go?”

                        “Yes. If you want to understand, will you stop talking and listen to me?” Hyukjae said.

Donghae nodded stupidly. She followed Hyukjae into the livingroom and sat on the sofa.

                        “Do you want some drink?” Hyukjae asked simply.

                        “No, just tell me the story.” Donghae grabbed Hyukjae’s hand who was about to go to the kitchen.

                        “Where do you wanna hear?” Hyukjae asked.

                        “Every detail.”

                        “A bunny boy chose to say his objection rather than kept silence forever.”

Donghae frowned, “A bunny boy?”

                        “Yep. A wet pink bunny boy said his objection.”

                        “Wait. I don’t get it.” Donghae’s frown got deeper.

                        “He is Kyuhyun, Sungmin’s junior back in University and her boyfriend for five years before they broke up and Sungmin met me.”

                        “And just like that? Sungmin chose him over you?”

                        “She was surprised by his appearance and she asked him to get out, but Kyuhyun proposed her instead of getting out.”

                        “And she said yes?”

                        “No, even she called security for getting him out, but everything was so obvious for me. Sungmin wanted to marry me, but I wasn’t the only one for her. I asked Sungmin if she really wanted to chase Kyuhyun away, she said yes but there was doubt in her eyes. And all of sudden I said ‘You can go with him’ which made her burst out crying. And everything was clear to everyone.” Hyukjae sighed at the end of his story.

Donghae stilled for a moment, processing the story. A pink bunny boy had ruined her best friend’s wedding. Suddenly Donghae remembered something, a pink bunny boy. Might it be the young man with bunny custom who running in the rain?

                      “I should have stopped him.” Donghae said. “I met the bunny boy on my way from the church.”

                      “It’s okay, Hae. It’s a relief for me too.”

                      “How could it’s a relief for you too? Your bride was stolen!” Donghae felt irritated without any reason.

                      “I said it’s okay, Hae. I don’t want to marry her if she doesn’t want to. Even more the moment she went with Kyuhyun I felt like my burden had gone too.”

Donghae stared at Hyukjae questioningly.

                “Sungmin is a nice woman. She is adorable and lovable. I did love her and I did want to marry her, but inside my heart I feel like it won’t last long. What if we realize later that we did a wrong decision, what if we realize after we have kids and it is too late for start anew. I don’t regret letting her go in fact I feel relief.”

Donghae was still staring at Hyukjae but now she tried to understand his reason.

“I don’t really understand, but I get it.”

Hyukjae smiled,” You came here right after waking up?”

Donghae realized she was still wearing her oversized shirt. And she couldn’t help but blush by the fact that she was only wearing a worn out and oversized shirt and her sweat pants in front of the man that she loved. She should have changed her clothes first, she thought.

                        “I bet you haven’t washed up yet.” Hyukjae said as he tousled Donghae’s hair up. Donghae inhaled secretly, she loved the scent of her shampoo and Hyukjae’s perfume mixed together.

                        “I have.” Donghae pouted due to Hyukjae’s words.”I was about to eat my breakfast when mom said that your wedding was cancelled.”

                        “And you came here before finishing your meal?”

                        “I … .” Donghae stuttered.

                        “Thank you for coming.” Hyukjae smiled.

                        “What do you want to eat?” Hyukjae asked. “I haven’t eaten lunch yet. Let’s order.”

                        “You are really weird, Hyukkie. Your bride just went with another man but now you look happy.” Donghae shook her head.

Hyukjae shrugged his shoulders, “Well, I feel free rather than happy. What do you want?”

                        “Up to you.” Donghae said. “It’s your treat, isn’t it? I don’t bring my wallet.”

                        “How about Jjajangmyun?”

Donghae nodded.

**************

                        “Sora-nuna was angry at me.” Hyukjae said as he ate his meal. ”You know, she showed me her rude face. Umma and Appa almost disowned me. Thankfully Sungmin said her apologize and said that it’s not my fault before she left which lessened Umma and Appa’s anger.”

Donghae slurped her jjangmyun,”And you let Kyuhyun go with Sungmin just like that?”

                        “I punched him once, but that’s all.”

                        “If I were there, I would have punched him too.”

Hyukjae chuckled, “If you were there, there would have been different story.”

There was silent afterward. Only the sound of noodles being slurped was heard. Donghae finished her meal first.

                        “You are fast.”

                        “I haven’t eaten breakfast, remember? Ah, I am still hungry, do you have anything else to be eaten?”

                        “There is pudding in the fridge, I think.”

Donghae stood up and made her way to the kitchen. She opened the fridge and found a huge strawberry pudding inside, ”Hyuk, can I eat all of this?”

                        “Give me some.” Hyukjae said as he finished his meal.

Donghae put the pudding on the table and nudged the pudding with spoon. The phone rang.

                        “Don’t pick it up.” Hyukjae said while he was cleaning up. “It must be Sora-nuna, she has been calling me for this whole day. She will be nagging at me.”

                        “As you want.” Donghae ate her pudding, sitting on the kitchen chair.

The phone was ringing for a moment and then the mailbox took over.

                        “Lee Hyukjae is not home now. Just leave message.”

                        “Lee Hyukjae!” A woman voice was heard.

Donghae giggled, it was sure Sora-unnie.

                        “I know that you are home! If you don’t pick up the phone in the count of three, I’ll nag at you about everything!”

Donghae stared at Hyukjae but Hyukjae just shrugged his shoulders.

                        “… two, three.”

                        “Okay, as I promised before I will nag at you about everything.”

                        “Lee Hyukjae, you are really a stupid man. How could you let your bride go with another man? And how could you ever want to get married with a girl like that? You are the most stupid younger brother I ever had.”

                        “Your decision yesterday was another your stupid decision after letting Donghae marry another man. But really I think that’s better for you to not marry Sungmin. I was angry but happy on the same time. You can get Donghae now, damn even you didn’t tell me that Donghae is back now. You have to make up for your foolishness five years ago. Don’t make another mistake. And do as you say. You said five years ago that you would confess to Donghae but one year afterward she introduced Kibum as her boyfriend.”

Donghae stopped eating her pudding as she heard what Sora-unnie was saying right now. Hyukjae’s mouth was gapping shockingly after he heard his sister words. He looked panic as he made his way to the phone and unplugged the phone cable. Donghae stared at him as shock as Hyukjae.

                        “Hyuk?” Donghae kept staring at him, demanding for some explanation.

                        “I think Sora-nuna is drunk.” Hyukjae smiled nervously.

                        “Ah, yes. I think she is … .” Donghae said dumbfoundedly.

Hyukjae bowed his head down, sitting on the sofa while Donghae stared at the pudding blankly. No one talked in the next minute and the other minutes. Hyukjae felt awkward to this silence with Donghae for the first time in his life. And somehow, Donghae felt the same way. She had never felt this awkward in silence with Hyukjae.

                        “I think, I have to go … .” Donghae stood up.

                        “Ah, yes… .” Hyukjae said awkwardly.

                        “No, you can’t go!” Hyukjae said almost shout as he stood up.

Donghae looked at Hyukjae nervously. They looked into each other eyes for awhile.

                        “Remind me, why do we become this awkward?” Hyukjae said.

Donghae broke their eyes contanct, looking at anything but Hyukjae,”Er, we become this awkward because Sura-unnie just said something?”

Hyukjae was still staring at Donghae, “Oh, yes. Thank you for reminding me.”

                        “Never mind.” Donghae said.

                        “And what did my nuna say?”

Donghae opened her mouth but there was no sound. Hyukjae sighed harshly in annoyance, “Really what an older sister I have.”

                        “Listen, I don’t want you to misunderstand me. What Sora-nuna said before is right. That’s fact.”

Donghae nodded. And another pause of silence.

                        “Five years ago you wanted to confess something to me, but due to some reason that I don’t know, you cancelled it and introduced Kibum instead.” Donghae broke the silence.

                        “Yes. I wanted to confess to you but  at that time we were too busy with our work and we could only spend our time as best friend and I was too stupid to steal the time and then accidentally I introduced Kibum to you and Kibum said that he liked you and being a best friend but stupid man I was, I let him date you even supported both of you stupidly.” Even Hyukjae didn’t know what he was saying now. He just talked and talked about what he felt that time while Donghae was staring at him.

                        “Arghk, I don’t know … .” Hyukjae approached Donghae as he leaned forward and kissed Donghae.

Donghae’s eyes widened due to the sudden action but the she closed her eyes, enjoying the sensation of Hyukjae’s lips touching hers. The kiss was only lips and lips being attached together but it was sweet and Donghae swore she could get diabetes if this kind of kiss lingered longer. Donghae pushed Hyukjae away softly.

                        “I … .” Donghae wanted to talk something but Hyukjae cut it with a peck on her lips.

                        “Let me.” Hyukjae said as he leaned closer until their nose tip touched.

                        “Lee Donghae, I know we have been being best friend since you were as tiny as tadpole and as short as a dwarf, but do you mind if I love you more than every best friend relationship does? Do you mind if I love you which make me feel jealous every time another man tries to get close to you? I know I’m stupid enough to delay this confession for five years, but I’m not that stupid to make another delay.”

Donghae chuckled, almost laughed,” You know my feeling. I confessed to you first.”

                        “If so,” Hyukjae smiled, “You don’t mind if I kiss you like this.”

                        “And like this, and like this and like this.” Hyukjae kissed Donghae again and again every time he said like this.

Donghae giggled between the kisses, “You should thank to Sora-unnie.”

                        “Yeah, but maybe later, after I’m done with this.” Hyukjae kissed Donghae.

Donghae closed her eyes, enjoying the kisses until she lost her count.

*************

Okay, there’s an epilogue of this fanfic. It was supposed to be included with the last part, but yeah, my family is around me now, and I can’t write and finish it freely, so I cut the last part and will make an epilogue from the cut part. As always, I accept everything include bashing and harsh comment even something like FUCK!! YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO WRITE IN ENGLISH, DO YOU?! STOP WRITING!! YOUR WRITINGS ARE SUCK!! Or maybe like hnjhnngpnuvgt1b35nvbenvcnpgngnbmgjr!! YOU ARE SUCK!! MY 3 YEARS OLD COUSIN IS BETTER THAN YOU AT WRITING!! I won’t delete your comment or angry at you, I swear.

 

Nice hat, Henry....
And Mimi is really hot here from my opinion....
LOL Henry at 4:22, Donghae at 1:49-1:52,Mimi and Donghae at 2:45...
When they were standing, Siwon looks like wearing my dad's clothes...

Saengchukahamnida Super Junior..
Been a long road to follow, but the 13+2 great men will go through it..

RAIN

Summary : Donghae looked herself on the mirror, she was all messed up.

Rating : PG-13

WC : 4,238

Disclaimer : Not mine, not mine, not mine. Mine is only the story.

Warning : AU, girl!Donghae, girl!Sungmin, OCCness because it’s AU story and everything can occur in AU world.
( Part 01 )

( RAIN part 2 )

it feels like death is approaching me lately..
it feels like my body is not mine anymore..
i don't know why, maybe it's just me..
well, if i don't post anything until more than 3 months, you know what happens to me..

Look at Henry and Kyu!!! Aw....

im doomed..

damn..
btw..
happy birthday, henry lau..